Chapter Three

September 2006

When I walked out of the lockerroom after our first home game, I saw a familiar face. It took me a few minutes to realize it was real and when it hit me I just dropped my bags and ran to him.
"Sidney!" I said hugging him.
"Surprised?" He asked.
"I thought you weren't coming back until tomorrow." I said.
"I wanted to surprise you."
"It was a good surprise." I said walking back to get my bags.
"You cut your hair." He said looking at me and touching my now shorter hair.
"And I got bangs.. do you like it?"
"It looks good. You seem different." He said while we walked to his car.
"Its been a long summer. I just have been doing soccer, I told you about those camps I went to."
"Yeah, so hows everything else?" He asked when we got into the car.
"You are acting like we haven't spoken in forever, I talked to you yesterday!" I said laughing.
"I know, its just weird seeing you again. In someways its like no time has passed and in other ways its seems like forever."
"I know, I am so glad you are home though. It feels so much better." I said.
"So what are you doing tonight?" He asked me.
"I have some homework, but nothing else."
"Do you want to go get dinner?" He asked me.
"Can we just go to the cafe and then we can go back and I can do homework.. I mean I want to hang out with you, I just have a crapload of work to do."

So we went to the cafe to get food. I had to admit that it was a little weird Sidney being back. I mean, I was definitely happy to see him again, but I was confused. I liked him so much before he left and I just wasn't sure if that spark was still there. I wanted it to be, and I still had that hope that we would get back together, but I wasn't sure what he was thinking or if I still thought I was inlove with him, or if I should just loved him. We went back to my house and I did work while he layed on the couch watching friends.
"This feels right." He said.
"It does.. I missed you alot. I didn't realize until I saw you again."
"I missed you too."
We were in the basement for awhile and then it was getting late so he left. Before he left, we were standing in my basement. I was about to say something to him and he put his hand on my face and kissed me. It was an amazing kiss and I was just confused.
"What was that for?" I asked shocked.
"I missed you, and I missed being able to do that." He said.
"But what does that mean, though?" I asked.
"I don't know.. lets just figure it out."

For the next few weeks, Sidney and I were back to normal. We weren't officially together, but we would steal kisses here and there. He came to a few of my soccer games and I loved going to his games. I would sit up in the box with Mario and Nathalie. Sometimes Sidney would go out with the guys after the game, and I didn't really care. He was free to do whatever he wanted.
"Did you have fun last night?" I called him the next morning.
"Yeah.. it was okay." He said whispering.
"Just okay? I heard differently." I said.
"What do you mean?" He asked confused.
"I heard you had a few girls last night."
"I'll be over in a few minutes." He said and hung up the phone.
A few minutes passed and he was in my room.
"It looks like you just woke up." I said.
"I did.. you called me and woke me up and then I came straight here."
"Why?"
"Because why did you say those things?"
"I was just saying what I heard." I said.
"Well who did you hear that from?"
"Jacob's friend."
"How was Jacob's friend there?"
"Jacob has older friends from hockey."
"Oh." He said sitting on the bed.
"I'm not mad, Sidney.. if thats what you are thinking."
"Why aren't you mad?"
"You want me to be mad?" I asked confused.
"I was with other girls, though."
"I know, but you are 19 and are living this insane life. You should be able to do whatever you want, you should be able to date girls and flirt and not worry that I am going to find out... you shouldn't be tied down to some senior at Sewickley Academy." I said.
"I don't want to lose you."
"You won't lose me. We just aren't together."
"So what does that mean?"
"It means you are my best friend and I want to talk to you everyday and I want to go to dinner with you and have movie nights. I am just able to go out on dates and you are able to do whatever you want with girls."
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"I'm sure that I want you in my life and I am sure that this is for the best.. but no more lies, Sidney."
"I was just scared."
"I'm here, always. I can take the truth."
"Promise." He said.
"Always."