Chapter Eighty-One

The next day was the start of soccer. We were conditioning and whatnot. I was kind of worried about it, because it was still up in the air if I would play this year. It was up in the air and I was still unsure if I even wanted to play. I knew I would play, I knew Sidney wanted me too, but I also knew playing would cut down the limited time Sidney and I have together. The only good thing in playing was that my best friend, Sophie, played too. And of course Simon plays on the boys team, and he is one of my best friends too. Simon was my best friend and I know Sidney knew that, but I’m sure it hasn’t escaped his mind that at one time in my life I did pick Simon over him. Looking back I’m not really sure what I was thinking when I made that decision.

“that sucked.” I said walking out of the lockerroom with Sophie.

“Yeah, you held up better than me.” She said.

“Yeah right!”

“You definitely looked good, Jo. I think they are definitely going to let you play.” She said.

“Really?” I asked shocked.

“Yeah, you looked really good. You are by far one of the best players. I guess you worked out in Canada?” She asked. Sophie and I hadn’t really talked much since I left. I never told her or anyone else, but I did find it a little strange that she was dating my brother. I didn’t at first, I thought it would be great. But, it wasn’t. Its kind of like now she isn’t going to be on my side. I feel like I can’t just talk to her like I use too because she has the right to tell her boyfriend things, but I don’t want my brother to know stuff. She is definitely still my best friend and I love her to death and I would never wish her and Jake to break up, but things between her and I could never be the way they were because her loyalties lie with someone else now.

“Yeah, Sidney and I ran together a lot. I would work out with him somedays. Not as long as he would, obviously. He is crazy. He has an insane work schedule.” I explained.

“Yeah, I could only imagine. When does he come back?” She asked.

“Beginning of September.” I said.

“Oh that’s not that bad.” She said.

“Not that bad, but still bad enough.” I said giving a little laugh.

“Hey, Jo!” I heard Simon said from behind me. I stopped to let him catch up to us.

“Hey, when did you get in town?” I asked. I knew he would be back, the boys started today too but I figured it would tell me.

“Two days ago.”

“And this is the first time we are seeing eachother?!” I asked shocked.

“Sorry.” He said giving me a hug. I just gave him a look.

“you should come to the house so we can hang out.” He said. I looked at Sophie because I was her ride back to my house. She was basically living there with Jake.

“I’ll just take your car.” Sophie said.

“oh yeah that works.” I said.

“Yeah, I’ll take you home.” Simon said and then Sophie headed to where we parked the car. Simon and I headed to the soccer house.

“I’m so tired.” I said plopping down on the couch.

“Me too.” He said.

“I can’t wait to do it all over again tomorrow, and the next day after that and after that.”

“Gotta love soccer.”He said laughing.

“You can’t say you love it after this.” I said.

“I do and so do you.” He said.

“Yeah, I know.. So how was going back home to London?” I asked him. I talked to Simon probably more than I talked to Sophie while I was in Canada, but you have to realize that I hurt both Simon and Sidney last year. I hurt Simon when I picked Sidney and it took us awhile to get to where we are today, and I hurt Sidney more than I could ever imagine. They both probably don’t like thinking about me with the other. Simon is more use to it since its not going to change, but still. While I was in Canada, I tried to talk to Simon but still he doesn’t want to hear about every little thing that I would do with Sidney. Its not like I want to rub it in, even if the wound isn’t fresh.

“It was good. I briefly got back together with Kylie.” He said.

“What? I thought you guys were done?!” I said confused. Kylie and Simon dated while in high school in London. They dated on and off, basically while he was in the UK he would date her but once he got to the US he wouldn’t. It was a weird situation but Simon insisted last year that never again would he be with Kylie again.

“It was a lapse in judgement. It lasted for like a month.” He said laughing.

“I will never understand you.” I said and then my phone rand. It was Sidney.

“Hey.” I said answering my phone.

“Hey babe. What are you doing?!” He asked.

“I was at soccer and then now I am at Simons just catching up.” I said.

“Oh.” He simply said. I could tell he didn’t like thinking about it.

“Can I call you later? Probably like an hour or so?” I asked.

“That’s fine.” He simply said.

“K, love you.” I said. He didn’t say anything he just hung up the phone. I tried not to think too much of it, but when your relationship is solely based on emails and letters and phone calls, you tend to read into things.

“Sidney is mad?” Simon asked.

“I don’t know. He is probably just tired or in a bad mood or something. I don’t know.” I said again.

“So you two are good then?” He asked.

“Yeah, we are really good. Its been hard.”

“Yeah well obviously.”

“We write emails daily and we will send letters. I actually just sent him a letter today, so he should be getting it in a few days. Then we talk on the phone every night and text or whatnot.” I explained.

“It seems like you guys are good then.”

“Yeah, but its still hard not seeing him. I mean to go from living with him for a month to not even seeing him once a week is weird.” I said.

“he will be back sooner than you think.”

“Yeah and soccer will be in full swing. Then he goes to Europe for like two weeks for hockey. Then hockey is completely in full swing. Its never ending.” I said.

“Your relationship seems impossible.” He said shaking his head.

“On paper our relationship seems impossible, but it just feels right. You know?”

“Yeah.. I didn’t mean anything by it. I mean it seems impossible but you guys are perfect together.” He said trying to defend himself.

“I know you didn’t mean anything by it. But you are right, if you would explain to someone our situation no one would think it would work.. but somehow it does.” I said.

“Do you ever worry that the will cheat on you?”

“What?!” I said completely shocked that he would ask this kind of question.

“I just mean you hear about hockey players cheating on their wives and stuff.”

“I’m sure some of his teammates cheat on their girlfriends and wives, but would Sidney? No.” I said.

“But hasn’t he before.”

“Yeah, but I also told him I didn’t want a boyfriend and I started dating you. Sidney and I have gone through everything together. We have both been on the wrong side of things. Has Sidney cheated on me before? Not technically. We weren’t exclusive or he broke up with me before he started being with Brittany. It doesn’t even cross my mind that Sidney would cheat on me. Its actually the last thing I would worry about when he leaves.” I explained.

“And that’s how you know that you two are the real thing.” He said.

“Shut up, Simon!” I said.