Chapter Forty-Seven

"Morning, babe." Sidney said and kissed me in the morning.
"Why are you up so early?"
"I want to ask you something."
"Okay." I said sitting up a little more and wiping my eyes and he sat down on the bed near me.
"Do you want to be together?" He asked being all serious.
"We are together."
"No, I mean officially. I want you to be my girlfriend. I want to love you and I want it right now." He said staring into my eyes.
"I want it.. but I don't want to use the L word yet."
"Okay." He said then jumped up.
"Where are you going?" I yelled at him. A few minutes later he brought me up Starbucks, Apple Juice, and Chocolate Chip pancakes.
"Oh babe.. were you not going to give it to me if I didn't want us to be us again?"
"No, but I'm really happy you did say yes." He said and leaned in to give me a deep kiss.
I started to eat some of the food.
"Do you want some?" I asked holding out my fork with some of it on it.
"Maybe just a bite." He said and I fed it to him.
"This is so good, Sid." I said with my mouth full.
"Thats hot, babe."
"Shut up!"
"So how does it feel to be 19?"
"A whole lot better now that I got you." I said laughing.
"You are stupid." He said.
"You can't be mean to me on my birthday. Its like not allowed."
"What do you want to do today?"
"Well I would really love to shower and I need to go get my phone from my mom. What stuff do you got today?"
"Nothing.. I'm devoted to you today." He said.
"You should be devoted to me everyday."
"Oh yeah, sorry I am devoted to you and hockey everyday." He said throwing a pillow at me.
"Hey! Watch the pancakes!" I yelled at him.
"I thought we could go shopping and I'll get you some stuff. Also, I got us a room tonight."
"Sidney.." I said.
"Not like that. I thought we could go to dinner and then just stay there and not worry about anything."
"You do treat me way too well." I said and he went into the bathroom to shower. When he got out I was still laying in bed.
"Are you ever getting out of bed?"
"Its comfy." I said rolling around in his bed. I rolled to the pillow that he slept on.
"It smells like you." I said pulling up the covers.
"You are just putting off going to get your phone from your mom."
"You know that you are coming with me." I said getting out of the bed.
"Why?" He said pulling on one of his shirts.
"Because my mom likes you." I said helping him put it on.
"Probably not when I wasn't even invited to your birthday dinner." He said laughing.
"Last night wasn't my birthday dinner. My birthday dinner is tonight with you. Its ridiculous because you have been a part of my family way before Sarah."
"Just don't think about it. Lets go get your phone.. you can shower and then we can spend some money."
"You know I don't like spending your money."
"But today you will because today is not only your birthday but we are exclusive."
"If we were in high school would you give me your letter jacket?" I said laughing.
"I never understood that.. where I went to high school we didn't even have letter jackets."
"Probably because you didn't really go to high school. You were in juniors."
"Yeah.. but I mean we didn't. Did you?"
"No. we should have had like gold jackets with the amount of money that we paid to go to school there." I said and he just started to laugh.
"You know what I'm into lately." I said getting into his car to go back to my house.
"What?"
"Plaid. I'm loving plaid lately."
"Well we will get you some plaid. I like when you wear chucks."
"Chucks and plaid thats where its at. I want to see you in plaid.. or better yet chucks." I said.
"I don't do chucks or plaid."
"Okay, well I hope you like me in my plaid and chucks."
"I like you in that.. of course." He said.

"MA!" I said walking into the house.
"Happy Birthday, Baby." She said giving me a hug.
"Can I have my phone back?" I asked her.
"Yeah.. can I talk to you about last night?" She asked me.
"Yeahh." I said sitting down and I pulled Sidney to sit down beside me.
"I'm sorry about last night. I'm sorry that Sidney couldn't be with us and I'm sorry that I made you miss the game."
"Mom I know you just like having the family together, but Sidney is a part of my life and is as big of a part as my family as anyone. I just want to be able to spend my birthday the way I want. I want to be with Sidney, and I don't want you to be mad at me when I stay at Sidneys, but we just like to be together when we can because I mean he is leaving soon."
"I know, Joey. Its just weird."
"Why is it weird?" I asked and Sidney got up.
"Sidney.. sit." I said to him.
"Its weird because I don't like thinking about my daughter with her boyfriend."
"Well mom we don't do anything so you don't have to think about it. And mom I am 19.. you don't know what I do at school and I don't do anything. I mean Sidney is probably scared right now about us talking about this, but we haven't done anything and we have been whatever since I was 16. I just don't get why there is a double standard with Jacob."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean Jacob will not come home all weekend. Sarah stays here sometimes and we all know they aren't just sleeping."
"Jacobs a boy."
"And I'm a girl and it shouldn't matter."
"It does matter.."
"Well it shouldn't and thats what I hate. I hate how me and Jacob aren't equals. We are treated differently and he is only like 5 minutes older than me!"
"I'm sorry."
"I'm going to go shower. I'll be back later or maybe tomorrow morning." I said and walked up to my bathroom and Sidney followed.

"Why did I have to be there for this talk?"
"Why wouldn't you be there?" I asked him.
"It was awkward."
"Yeah for everyone."
"Does she really need to know that we don't have sex?"
"Sidney, even if we were having sex I wouldn't tell her that. I don't want my mom thinking about that."
"Well I don't think thats ever going to happen."
"Oh Sid.. it will." I said putting my hand on where his pathetic beard is.
"I like this scruff. You should do this all the time." I said.
"Don't hate."
"I don't hate. I like." I said kissing his jaw line.
"Go shower! I want to start the festivities!" He said.