Chapter Thirty-Seven

Mid April 2008
"What movie?" Connor asked.
"You know what movie we haven't watched in a REALLY long time?" I asked starting to smile.
"I'm kind of scared to find out."
"Titanic." I said.
"Are you serious?"
"So serious. Its a classic Leo movie. you can't not watch it!" I said.
"Its soo long though."
"Its soo good, though!" I said.
"Fine.. but if I fall asleep its not my fault."
"Connor, you cannot fall asleep!" I said hitting him!

Towards the end of the movie, Sidney showed up. They had an away playoff game so I didn't expect him. Anyways he showed up right as the ship was sinking so no way was I stopping the movie!
"Hey, can we talk?" He asked.
"After the movie." I said. "Take a seat."
"Please tell me you aren't crying!" Connor said after the movie.
"I just don't get why Jack had to die! I mean seriously.. whats wrong with happy endings?!" I said.
"Hun, the ship sinks.. there is no happy ending after that." He said.
"But still! Sorry, you don't have a heart and you don't even flinch when he just freezes!" I said.
"Yeah, what can I say.. I'll call you tomorrow." He said getting up.
"Thanks for letting me watch it, Connor."
"Bye, Sid." He said and then he left.

"So whats up?" I asked when Connor left.
"I didn't know you would be with Connor." He said.
"Yeah.. I was watching the kids so after the game I made him watch Titanic." I said.
"I don't like seeing you with him.. or thinking about you with him."
"Sidney.." I said.
"I'm just being honest." He said.
"Connor is just my friend. He's like my best friend."
"He's like me." He said.
"Yeah.."
"Thats what makes me sad.. you have another me."
"I don't have another you. We watch movies, Sidney. We hang out. We are friends." I said.
"Sidney.. its like you think I like the way we are right now." I started to say. "I don't like it. I don't like the fact that you have another girl. I don't like the fact that we don't hang out as much or talk as much. I'm dealing with it. I mean its fine. I'm fine."
"I don't like the way we are either, Joey." He said.
"Then why is it this way?" I asked.
"I don't know how to fix it."
"I don't know if you can fix it. I just miss you." I said.
"I'm right here, Jo."
"But you aren't. You don't like thinking about me with Connor, but me and Connor watch movies together. I don't like thinking about you and Brittany and you and Brittany do way more than watch movies."
"Joey I don't want to hurt you."
"Then don't."
"I'm not with Brittany anymore."
"If its not Brittany, its going to be another girl. You need that.. I get it. You are a guy."
"There doesn't need to be another girl."
"I feel like you just lied about Brittany. Did you?" I asked.
"You have this idea of us and its not like that. We hang out every once and awhile. She goes to the club and stuff. Its not like she is my girlfriend." He explained.
"That doesn't make it better, babe. Oh yeah its okay that you just use her for sex."
"I didn't say that."
"So why did you come here?"
"I just want us to be okay."
"We are friends.. thats what I want from us. I want us to be friends and I don't want there to be a blurred line. I don't love you anymore and you obviously don't love me anymore. When I date someone, I don't want to date my best friend.. I want romance. I want to look at them and be attracted and feel passion, I don't want to question if they are just my best friend."
"So me and you can't ever be together because we are best friends?"
"IF we are ever together and thats a HUGE if you can be my best friend but you need to be my boyfriend. You need to be romantic and I never want to question if you are my boyfriend or my best friend. I don't want the lines blurred."
"Yeah.." He said.
"So whats up?" I said.
"My parents want you to come to dinner." He said.
"What?" I asked confused.
"My mom is coming in soon and she wants you to come to dinner with us all."
"Random?"
"My mom likes you.. like alot. She asks me about all the time."
"If only your dad liked me half as much." I said.
"Don't start that again."
"Sorry.."
"But will you?"
"Sure.."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah, its fine. They know everything?" I asked.
"They know we aren't together." He said.
"You do know that it will probably come out so you probably should tell your mom everything because I'm not going to lie." I said.
"I don't want you to lie." He said.
"I'm tired, Sid. I just want to go to bed." I said.
"Okay, I'll talk to you tomorrow?" He asked.
"Yeah.. don't be weird, Sidney. Don't act like this is weird. Be normal."
"Sorry. Night.. love you." He said walking out the door.
"Night." I said and shut the door.