Chapter Fifty-Eight

I walked in on a conversation that Sidney was having on the phone. When he saw me come in, he immediately hung up. He had all of his luggage sitting out.

“Wait.. you are leaving today?” I said confused. “I thought we had another night together?” I said.

“My parents are flying back today, so it just made more sense.” He said.

“When were you going to tell me?” I said getting upset.

“I knew you would be upset.” He said.

“No shit, I’m upset Sidney! Its bad enough you are leaving, but I thought I had one more day, and now you tell me you are leaving in what like a few hours?! Of course I’m going to be upset.” I said.

“Babe, you are acting like I want to leave you.”

“Oh well you are obviously dreading it since you are moving it up another day!” I said.

“That’s not fair.”

“No, whats not fair is that you get to have it your way. You get to leave whenever you want and come back whenever you want. You have that freedom, you will just do things to make you forget hockey and you will not miss me, but me.. I’m going to be sitting here without you!” I yelled.

“First of all, I will miss you. And I’m sorry, Josephine. I don’t know what else to say to you. I love you and I wish we didn’t have to be a part, but we do. Okay, I love you and I will always love you and I’m sorry.”

“We can’t even say good bye then.. its like I’m going to say goodbye with your dad watching me.” I said tearing up.

“I love you and I will miss you more than anything in the world. But this first month will go fast.. I’ll be in the Bahamas in a few days and you will be in the Hamptons. Then I’ll be back for a few days then its like already July.”

“My Hamptons is completely different than your Bahamas. You are going with your friends, I am going by myself with my Nan. Maybe there will be some college kids there that I knew when I was younger, or Ben will be there. I don’t know. Its not the same.” I said and walked out of the room.

“Jo, don’t do this. Don’t push me away right before I’m suppose to leave.” He said.

“Sidney, its not like I want it to be this way. I’m dying inside. I feel like my heart is getting ripped out.” I said and he just pulled me into his arms.

“Baby, lets just go to dinner. I’ll tell my parents to take the jet and I’ll leave tomorrow night.” He said.

“You don’t have to do that. Its fine.” I said wiping my face.

“I know this is going to be hard, Jo. Every time summer rolls around we have never been this good. We have never been this solid, so it will be even harder.”

“Every year it just keeps getting harder. I feel like when you leave its like a part of me isn’t here, and I know it sounds corny but its true. You are my best friend and I love you with my whole heart and when you aren’t here, it just hurts.” I said.

“I know, it will be fine. We will get through it. I promise.” He said kissing my forehead.

“I’m okay. We can go to the airport now.” I said walking out of the room.

“I’m not ready yet.” He said grabbing my arm. “I just need to hold you awhile longer.” He said. We then just laid on the bed together, completely entangled. About an hour passed when we both knew it was time.

“ I hate this.” I simply said grabbing one of his bags and heading to my car. I was driving to the airport, obviously since he wouldn’t need his car at the airport.

“I know.” He said.

“Do you promise that we are going to talk all the time?” I asked.

“I promise that we will talk all the time and that I will miss you so so much. Everything will be fine.” He said. The ride to the airport was silent. None of us said anything, we just held hands. When we got to the airport, we got his bags. Once his bags were checked, it was time.

“I hate goodbyes.” I said crying. He just pulled me into his arms.

“I love you, don’t forget it.” He said pulling back and looking me in the eyes.

“I want you to have a great summer, but don’t find any soul mates.” He said trying to be funny.

“I’m looking at my one and only.” I said continuing to cry.

“Joey, I love you. I’ll call you as soon as we land.” He said and we just hugged for a few minutes. We gave a quick kiss and then he pulled away.

“I love you.” I said wiping my eyes.

“Bye, babe.” He said and then walked towards the plane.

“He’s gone.” I called Connor sitting in my car crying.

“Are you okay?” He asked.

“No, I feel like someone just ripped out my heart. I just watched the best part of my life leave.” I said.

“Jo, its going to be fine.”

“Everyone keeps saying that, but you don’t understand how it feels!” I said.

“I’m sorry, Jo. I’ll be over with ice cream and movies.” He said.