Chapter Seventy-One

“Babe, did you have fun tonight?” He asked when I came out of the bathroom ready for bed.

“Yeah, I really did.” I said.

“We even played a game..” He said so impressed with himself.

“Yeah, you were still annoying about it.” I said laughing.

“You know I don’t try to be that way.”

“Babe, I know..” I said. He looked so upset when I said that.

“I love having you here and with my family.” He said smiling.

“I love it too, baby.” I said and we kissed. And kissed. We were just making out in his bed, for who knows how long, until I pulled away. Because that’s what I do, I pull away.

“Sidney..” I whispered.

“I know.” He said.

“I’m sorry.” I said as he rolled over.

“Don’t be.”He said putting his arm around me and kissing my forehead.

“But I am.” I said then I just tried to go to sleep.

“Don’t be upset about last night.” He said when I woke up and kissed me.

“I’m not. I love you.” I said as he got up to get ready to go to the gym.

“Babe, I love you too. Even if you hate my competitiveness.” He said laughing.

“I think I might go to breakfast with your mom.” I said.

“Oh yeah, that sounds like a good idea.” He said.

I ended up just going over to Sidney’s parents house and eating there with Trina. Sidney dropped me off before he went to the gym. I guess Troy was going to the gym with him, and Taylor was at her friends house.

“So you guys are coming over here tonight for dinner?” Trina asked me after she brought me over some tea.

“Yeah. I can’t cook and either can Sidney. We make a really good team.” I said laughing.

“Oh its not a big deal.” Trina laughed.

“So are you liking it here?” She asked me.

“Yeah, we haven’t really had any major fights. I mean we have only been here for like 3 days, but I thought it would be worse. I mean not bad, but we usually have a break from eachother. We hang out but he goes to practice or I go to practice, then we see each other.”

“Oh yeah, how is soccer?” Trina asked.

“I don’t know what I want to do about it. That’s actually why Sidney and I had an argument.”

“About what exactly?”

“It’s a big deal that I have a scholarship because the academy was so expensive, so that’s a big reason why I play soccer, it didn’t use to be, but its starting to be. Sidney said that if I didn’t want to play, that he would pay.” I said and she just looked at me.

“Don’t worry, I would never let him do that.” I explained.

“Joey, he can do whatever he wants with his money. You are a very important part of his life, so if he wants to do that, he can do that.” She said so sincerely.

“I don’t want him to do that. What happens if this doesn’t work out and then he paid for my college? I don’t want that.”

“Do you really not think that this is going to work?”

“I want it to work. I want it to work with all my heart, but I’m scared. I’m scared that its not going too and I’m scared that I will be left without a best friend and without a boyfriend. I’m scared that he will break my heart into a million pieces and then won’t be there to pick them up again.”

“Does it bother you that he is in the media?” She asked me a little later in the conversation.

“No, it doesn’t bother me that he is a hockey player. But, I get scared sometimes. I get scared that people at school are going to find out and something bad is going to happen.”

“What do you mean?”

“I guess my biggest fear is that something is going to happen that Sidney won’t be able to fix.” I simply said.

“My son loves you, Joey. I can tell by the way he talks about you and the way he looks at you. You don’t have to be afraid of him. Let him love you.” She said.

When Trina dropped me back off at Sidney’s house, I was in for a surprise. I got back and Sidney wasn’t home yet. I went outside to just sit out on the deck to read, because it was a really nice day. Sidney must have gotten home at some point, but I didn’t hear him come in. I did hear someone come in. It was a girl. She just walked into the house, I was kind of confused. I mean what kind of person just walks into another person’s house? I was about to find out. I heard the front door close for some odd reason, so I went into the house to find this girl and Sidney hugging. When they heard me come in, they pulled away.

“Jo, this is Sam.” He said and I just looked at them both.

“Hi, Joey. Nice to meet you. I’m his best friend.” She said smiling. Best friend? Sam is his best friend? I don’t think I have ever even heard of this girl before, and she is walking into his house without knocking and claiming she is his best friend? I must have missed something.

“Oh.” I simply say and look at Sidney.

“She lives here. Well she use too, she goes to University now in Toronto. She just came back for a few weeks.” He explained.

“I see, I’m going to take the dog for a walk, and give you guys some time to talk.” I said leaving the room and getting Sam, the dog.

I was leaving them because I needed to get out of that house. I needed to clear my head. Sam is his best friend? Sam? And he named his dog after her? It has to be a coincidence. He wouldn’t name his dog after another girl.. right? I made sure to walk for a really long time, because I didn’t want to get back with her still there. I wanted to be able to talk to my boyfriend in private. Unfortunately, I came back after probably close to an hour and she was still there.

“Hey..” I said walking out on the deck.

“Hey, Jo. How was the walk?” Sidney asked.

“It was good. Could I talk to you for a second?” I asked still standing in the doorway to the house.

“Sure.” He said and got up.

“Sidney, we need to talk. Like seriously, talk. So I’m going to go upstairs and shower, and I hope that she isn’t still here when I get out, because we need to talk.” I said.

“Okay?” He said confused.

“Whats wrong?” Sidney asked then.

“We need to talk, that’s it.” I said and turned around to go upstairs to shower. I figured the shower would calm me down, and I could let out a good cry without anyone knowing.