Chapter Seventy-Six

Two Days Later.

Tonight, Sidney and I are having a date night. Its funny that that’s what I’m calling it because every night is like a date night, but still. Tonight we are going to a fancy dinner, I don’t really know. Sidney is planning it all. I’m really excited. Sidney and I haven’t really been out and about in Halifax at all. Usually our nights are dinner with his family, then movie night or something. Or we play a game or get ice cream or we go running with Sam. So much fun, I know. But, tonight.. apparently he is being romantic or something. Who knows.

I decided to dress the part. I put on a white short skirt. Then it was paired with a black loose fitting low cut shirt. And a long silver necklace. I figured that it had been a while since Sidney had seen me in anything that actually revealed anything. I then picked up these pair of black wedges that I actually stole from Sophie. I was turning over a new leaf. I got a man I loved and I was going to dress more confident and mature. Plus, the man of my life is Sidney Crosby, I don’t want to embarrass him. I know he says that I am the most beautiful when I am wearing sweats and have my hair in a pony tail. He says that’s when he fell for me, he doesn’t need to see me wear fancy clothes. He knows what I look like, and he thinks I am beautiful in anything. Yeah, I think he just says these things because he knows he should.

It was a weird thing I was feeling. I was excited to see him. I hadn’t seen him at like all today. We decided to do this when he was getting ready for his workout. Then he went to workout and then went to play hockey with Taylor. He was taking it seriously about this date thing, and said he would get ready at his parents and would come pick me up. He was a dork, but I loved it about him.

I heard the door bell ring.

“Sidney, just come in!” I yelled. I knew it was him. He is such a dork! Its his own house, and he is ringing the door bell!

“You look beautiful.” He said giving me a kiss and handing me a single coral rose.

“Your favorite.” He said.

“You are a dork.” I said laughing.

“And you.. you are perfect.” He said pulling me closer.

“You don’t have to say those things.” I said blushing.

“When will you ever let me just compliment you? Its been three years and still.. I can’t tell you that you are beautiful or that I love you without you blushing.” He said.

“That’s not true.” I said shaking my head.

“It is. And you are beautiful. I see it everyday and you don’t. But I have seen it since that first day. I think I fell for you right then.” He said once we got into the car.

“Oh you are such a liar! You didn’t fall for me then.” I said.

“How do you know?” He asked.

“Because we have broken up so many times since that day.” I said.

“Me breaking up with you or you breaking up with me didn’t mean that I stopped loving you. I wish you would realize that.” He said.

When I was sitting across from him in the restaurant, it hit me. I was looking at my future. I was looking at the man I would love for all eternity, and it didn’t scare me. Sometimes when I look at Sidney, it just hits me. It hits me how amazingly good looking he is, and how much he loves me. When I stare into his eyes, I truly can see his soul. And I think Sidney is most gorgeous man I have seen, but boy, his soul is even more gorgeous.

“this is perfect.” I said reaching for my wine glass.

“You are.” He said laughing.

“Way to ruin the moment.” I said.

“I can’t believe we made it through everything.” He said.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“I mean everything that happened. You made it through high school, I made it through the ankle thing, we made it through Brittany and Simon and Jeremiah and Connor and Avery.” He said.

“Wow, looks like you have had more flings than I have.” He said.

“Or maybe you just can only remember Brittany’s name. Because I’m pretty sure there were other ones.” I said smiling.

“You are so bad!” He said.

“It is so true.” I said smiling even more.

“Its weird to think about though. We are sitting here, and I have never loved you more.” He said reaching for my hand.

“I know, when I met you.. I was 16. I was a junior in high school. That seems so long ago.” I said.

“I’m just really glad you are here right now. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else. I know that now.” He said.

“Oh just give it a few months.” I said shaking my head.

“Its not true. This time is for forever.” He said.

“You know, I never thought that we would be that couple that is on again off again. When we first started dating, I thought it would be forever right then.” I said.

“Then it ended like 3 months later.” I said laughing.

“I was stupid.” He said.

“Its okay, I forgive you.” I said.

“Do you love Canada so far?” He asked.

“I do. I think I already loved it before I came here.” I said.

“What?”

“You are Canadian. You love it. You love it, I love it. Its just how it works these days.” I said.

“I wish we could just freeze time.” He said later that night when we were laying in bed together. We had just made love and I had never felt closer to him that this moment. We were on the same page with everything. We were in sync. I loved that feeling. I love the feeling of his arms around me and the feeling of safety. I love the feeling that I get when he looks at me. I love that feeling that knowing that when he looks at me, no one can take that away. I love the fact that in a crowded room, it can feel like its just the two of us. And mostly, I just love that he loves me.

“Why? You wouldn’t have the cup yet then.” I said.

“True. I just want you in my arms forever.” He said.

“I wish we could live together in Pittsburgh.” I said looking up at him.

“I know. I wish a lot of things were different in Pittsburgh.” He said.

“Like what?”

“I wish I had more time with you.” He said.

“I hate when you leave. Even if we aren’t together like physically in Pittsburgh, I love the fact of knowing that you are like twenty minutes away from me. I love thinking that I could drive to see you whenever I want. I hate knowing that you are so far away.” I said.

“That’s the only thing I hate about hockey. I hate that I can’t have both of you at the same time.” He said.

“Oh, babe.. you don’t hate anything about hockey.” I said playing with his hair.

“Maybe you are right. But, I do miss you way too much.” He said.

“This will be the first time we are starting out the year dating.” I said.

“Hopefully we make it a full year.” He said laughing.

“I’m pretty sure that’s up to you.” I said poking his chest.

“You act like I’m the only reason we ever break up! One word.. Simon.” He said.

“One mistake and you will never let me forget it!” I said laughing.

“Its cause I love your face when I make fun of you.” He said pulling me on top of you.

“Well, I love your face all the time!” I said giving him a kiss and tracing his jaw line with my finger.

“Right now, right here with you.. this is perfection.” He said in between kisses.

“ I can think of better things to do than talk.” I said putting my finger to his lips.

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