Chapter Seventy-Two

“Jo, you can come down.. she is gone.” He said yelling up the stairs sounding kind of annoyed.

“How was your little get together?” I asked walking out to the deck.

“Fine.. I don’t get why you are being like this.” He said following me outside.

“Really? Don’t you think its kind of weird you never ever ever mentioned Sam, who is apparently your best friend?” I asked.

“I mentioned her before.”

“No, I’m pretty sure that you haven’t.. in 3 years I have never heard of any Sams besides your dog.” I simply said and he just kind of looked at me.

“So she is your best friend?” I asked.

“She was.. that was a long time ago.” He said.

“Did you date?” I asked. He just looked at me.

“Sidney! Did you date her?” I asked again.

“She was my first girlfriend.. she was my first a lot of things.” He said finally.

“Yeah, so I basically just replaced her.” I said.

“What?”

“She’s your Sidney.”

“What are you talking about, Jo?”

“You were my best friend, you were my first love. You were my first everything.” I said.

“Its not like that, Jo.”

“To me, it seems like it’s the exact same thing.” I said.

“Jo, I dated Sam for 6 months.”

“Yeah, but I don’t see you naming your dog after me.” I said.

“What?”

“Your dog. Her name is Sam, coincidence?! Like What the fuck, did you really need to name your dog after another girl!?” I said getting more and more angry.

“Joey..” He said taking a step towards me.

“Oh my God.” I said.

“What?” He said confused again.

“She was your first a lot of things.. you lost your virginity to her?” I asked. He just looks at me.

“What? You didn’t think I would figured it out? You are unbelievable, Sidney. You name your dog after the girl you fucked?! You named your dog after another girl, and I am not suppose to be mad about this?! You hide this from me for so long and then she just walks into your house like she does it all the time?! How am I suppose to feel about this, Sidney?! How?! Because right now, I’m feeling like I don’t know you. I’m feeling like I don’t like you, let alone love you.” I said and then walked back into the house.

We didn’t talk after that, but we still had to go to dinner at his parent’s house. We didn’t talk in the car and we didn’t even really look at eachother once we got there. I was trying to not let them realize something was wrong. I was trying to not care and let them know that I couldn’t even look at their son. I was trying to be mature, but it didn’t really last that long.

“Whats wrong with you two?” Trina asked after we were done eating.

“Why don’t you tell them, Sidney.” I said in a smart ass tone.

“Something major must be wrong, because you two haven’t said a word to each other nor have you looked at each other. So whats wrong?” Trina asked again.

“Lets just say I met the reason Sidney’s dog is named Sam.” I said.

“That’s not true, Joey.” Sidney finally spoke up.

“Whats not true? I did meet Sam today, the girl, not the dog.” I said.

“Your mad because you met Sam?” Troy asked.

“I’m mad because some random girl walked into the house today and talked to Sidney for two hours! I’m mad because I found out that she is his best friend? Funny, because I thought I was his best friend. I’m mad because I found out a lot more about Sam and Sidney’s relationship. I’m mad because he named a dog after someone he says meant something to him a long, long time ago, and it doesn’t compare to what me and him have. I’m mad because your son, isn’t who I thought he was.” I simply said and walked into the kitchen.

“Joey.” Trina said coming into the kitchen.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t want everything to come out here. I just don’t understand how he can’t understand why I would be upset? I mean he named a dog after her!” I said.

“You don’t know that’s why he named Sam that.” Trina said trying to be the voice of reason.

“Well than it’s a huge coincidence. But, why wouldn’t he ever mention her to me? Why keep it a secret? He knows everything about me, and I’m realizing I know nothing about him.” I said.

“You know whats important. You know whats in his heart.” She said and with that she left the kitchen. Soon after Sidney and I left the house again. When he got into the house, the fight just continued.

“I can’t believe you would bring my parents into this!” Sidney said almost as soon as we got in the door.

“I can’t believe that you are such an ass!” I yelled back.

“Oh yeah, I’m an ass?! I’m an ass?! I’m not the one that has multiple people in love with them!” He said.

“What are you talking about?!”

“Connor, Avery.. Colin, Simon.. should I continue?!” He said.

“First of all, that has nothing to do with anything. Second, they aren’t inlove with me! Simon has a girlfriend! Third, multiple people in love with me? Try you have thousands of girls in love with you! HELLO! YOU ARE SIDNEY FUCKIN CROSBY!” I yelled.

“Wait, so now I should apologize because people know who I am?” He asked.

“No, you should apologize because you still love Sam!” I said.

“Wait, I should probably clarify that.. You love Sam, the girl! Because you know there are two of them in your lives, the dog and the girl.” I said.

“Let it go, Jo. She is nothing.”

“A no one wouldn’t just walk into your house. A no one wouldn’t spend two hours talking to you! A no one wouldn’t matter. A no one wouldn’t be your dog’s name sake!” I yelled.

“Listen. Sam grew up here. I have known her forever. We dated when I was 16. It was right before I left for Juniors. We dated and I went to Juniors. Then after Juniors, I went to Pittsburgh and I met you. She left to go to school in Toronto when I left for Pittsburgh. We hardly even talk!”

“You loved her once, which means you will love her forever.” I simply state.

“Loving someone and being in love with someone are two very different things!”

“I can’t imagine naming a dog after another guy. And I really can’t imagine you not caring if I did so.” I said.

“Joey, I’m sorry. Okay, I’m sorry. I don’t know what you want me to say.”

“you can’t say anything. I don’t know you. How many Sams are out there? Who will you name your next dog after? I mean, really Sidney. You know every last detail about my life, and I know nothing about yours!” I said getting more sad than upset.

“I’m really sorry. Just let me fix it.” He said.

“You can’t fix it, Sidney. Everything is just not okay because you are sorry. Everything is just not okay because you want it to be.” I said.

“I love you.”

“Yeah, and sometimes love just isn’t enough.” I said walking up the stairs.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m going to sleep in the guest room tonight.” I said.

“Joey, don’t be silly. Sleep in my room, sleep with me.”

“I just need time to think.”

“We never go to sleep mad at each other.” He said.

“There is a first time for everything.” I said and then I disappeared upstairs.






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